Master Hilarion: Golden Phoenix
Channel: Jahn J Kassl | Source
Question received by a reader. Hilarion responds.
Dear Jahn, dear team!
I have a good question for the spirit world:
I received a rich, long-standing spiritual training—first shamanic, then through many meditations and medicine wheel ceremonies with a wonderful Swiss teacher who is close to nature. From her, I also learned the long-standing Buddhist practice of Red Tara.
Then I went through the 48 steps to awakening at the Kryon School in Rosenheim and spent meditation and mantra evenings with many groups, etc. And yet I end up back at myself again and again, in my recurring depressions that wash over my life like tsunamis and repeatedly plunge me into the same existential threat – months of the most inglorious resistance and fear, at the end of which I feel like I have built nothing in my life and am back at square one at the age of 16.
During the last depressive episode, my greatest challenge, which I was unable to overcome with distinction, was the all too understandable resistance to the new valley of tears, the further dark night of the soul – with suicidal thoughts and all the trimmings.
What do I do with this resistance to having to go through such a phase again?
How on earth do I manage to keep my light shining when I’m ridden with these fears and depressions?
When I’m afraid to go to bed at night because another unbearable day lies ahead of me and I can’t maintain the long-learned trust in my light – can’t stop the destructive cycles of thought… I feel helpless, small and immature like I was at 16, as if I had never received any inner training.
What do I do with this naked resistance? No, I never want to go back to this valley because it’s tearing me apart!
What do I do with this naked experience of pain, when EVERYTHING resists letting my soul spin again on this inner carousel of destruction, and I can only watch as my self ages by years in the vortex of fear, and I can’t hold on to love. Even though I know this is all my inner, self-created hell that I can’t stop, and yet I know that I’m no one’s victim…
I sincerely ask for answers from the spiritual teachers and angels I can sometimes sense so clearly. I ask for guidance that will help me better see where the path leads and how I can better apply my lessons when it comes again—someday.
How can I learn discipline when every day seems to consist only of an effort of will to somehow keep living.
I know I have a lot of help from human angels who are helping me along and extending a hand for me to take. But the experience of failure is so intense that sometimes I just want to disappear. What do I do with my Shiatsu practice? Can I keep it going? Or should I just keep a job and quit the practice? The spirit world has thrown everything at my feet for Shiatsu: training, practice, etc.
But I can’t keep my client base because I keep collapsing into depression…
There must be a prospect of a life worth living for myself, too, otherwise it will no longer mobilize any strength for me.
Oh, how wonderful it would be to be able to classify and understand this, to escape the consciousness of eternal failure…
Thank you so much for holding the light and bringing it to us in such a concentrated way – through your helpers and readings!!!
Best regards, Thomas
Time for healing is now!
Light and love, life and compassion and devotion to all people who have done their homework and yet still walk through a valley of tears – the joyful height of light not in sight.
Dear Thomas,
You are blessed, you are loved, you are in the light, and yet you are plagued by circumstances that rob you of your mind and confuse you.
What needs to be done, what can be done?
The origin of your repeated emotional and psychological downturns lies in the fact that foreign energies have taken up residence within you and regularly administer this insidious poison of depression to you.
The many training courses have trained you and you have acquired specific skills.
Now, profound psychological healing is needed to decouple painful events from this and past lives, and a fundamental transformation of deep-seated issues is required. On a spiritual level, you have gained a certain degree of insight and insight; on a psychological and physical level, you are being taken over by destructive forces.
Your vibration will be dampened and fought against with all means.
Everything has its time, and the time for your complete healing is now! What will disappear are the alien elements that seek to cause you to disappear. What seeks to bring you down will itself fall, and what seeks to tear you apart will be torn apart. But you shall be reborn and rise again. You shall rise like a fiery golden phoenix rising from the ashes.
What can you do? Ask and it will be given to you!
Ask for a sign that you may recognize the healing hands and healing hearts of true healers, so that they may find you and you may find them. Everything is coming to you now—trust—for you are pure divine light that wants to be recognized as such.
Powerful invocation
The following powerful invocation will bring you initial relief:
I, (state your name here),
ask Archangel Michael to destroy all demons
that rob me
of my life force!
I thank you for this grace!
Repeat this affirmation whenever a destructive vibration builds up. Furthermore, keep your eyes and heart open; you will be supported and guided – the time for training is over, and the time for transformation of previously neglected energy bodies begins.
You have successfully worked your way to this point! Don’t let yourself be persuaded by the feeling of failure, for it is being instilled in you by forces that you no longer ought to and will no longer be able to accommodate. Remain calm, remain trusting, and you will build your new life on GOD.
You are loved, your being honored,
healing lies in God alone.
MASTER HILARION